I went to bed last night with full intentions of waking up as a non smoker.
I smoked the last of my tobacco last night, cleared all ashtrays and any smoking paraphernalia from the house before going to bed.
When I got up I was feeling ok, had the normal cup of tea, read my mails, etc, But within an hour I was feeling quite weird and very agitated.
Well, I've just given in and bought a pouch of tobacco, I don't feel bad to my choice, I just could not do with feeling like I did, it's odd how smoking can calm you down.
The withdrawal symptoms I had were quite bad, anxiety and anger, Thinking what the feck am I doing, give me the damn smoke Now you Mother Fecker, it was not quite that bad in the shop.
It was not a new year’s decision, I just wanted to gain more of my health back by not smoking.
I guess in time I will, but it shows me that I'm quite weak in that aspect, but quite good at other everyday challenges that are layed before me.
I've just been reading about withdrawal symptoms,
Anxiety and irritability.
Coughing, dry throat, and mucus.
After reading what I have, I think it's best for me to continue smoking.