hmm i have a friend of mine who said he doesnt use ftn anymore.and soo he said he would give me his account in ftn (ftn power)..as i wanted to get into ftn real bad... and in return i gave him waffles invite(2 weeks back)...it wasnt a trade exactly...i know it does seems to be a trade,but it wasnt....trade happens with equals...not waffles and ftn........ i know this guy from a while....he is a good friend of mine...anywas the account got disabled after a while..because of my ignorance , foolishness and mostly greed ..and a little bit of bigger epennies,i wanted to own the account.. and changed the mail id ...my friend never said anything in a bad way,or blamed me for about having lost his account...but i feel pretty bad about what happened...hmm of course about having lost ftn account and the worst part it being my friends account ..well it was a great lesson i learnt that day..i never tot i would be greedy too ,some day... i never acted like that before.. hmm..i have my own flaws...and yeah i am learning from my life.
i was just tired of begging,and i got carried away by the fact that i would get into ftn....i wouldnt do the things i did in normal circumstances.. but getting into ftn for the first time after having waited for 3-4 months is quiet a feeling to suppress...and yeah i belive "friends happen, friends r not made" i havent made many friends here but helped a few whenever i could ,in private.....
i have messaged brandon about this havent got any reply from him...well thats my story
here is my ftn request ..and the only request i hoped would be filled since 1 month
well i wanted to know if i get a second chance...every one gets a second chance,i am not all that bad person and its christmas time,couldnt the ftn staff and i just kiss and make up,comon by the end of the day its just a torrent site and also one of the main reasons behind me making this thread is may be i miss the whole feeling of having got into ftn and how it made me feel really good,like i had acomplished something in my pointless life......
well i also realise you(ftn staff) wouldnt understand or care how i felt, or how i feel....because everything looks easy and colorfull when you r an ftn staff,atleast in the torrenting world....and threads like mine wont make any sense to you guys...well i tried.
thanks for reading