I've seen several people ask for advice on stuff, I figuared this would be a good time for me to try it out.
About 3 months ago I moved out of my apartment because my girlfriend was going to college and it was too much for her having to work and do college full time, also my best friend since third grade was homeless and he needed a place to stay until he and his girlfriend could find a place of there own, so I did what I felt I had to do, even though It sucked for me, we moved out, and they moved in for the remainder of the lease. Since then things have gone to total shit, I haven't felt this depressed and hopeless since highschool. (Just to give you an idea of shitty things have been. I never got a single thankyou from my friends or my girlfriend, and a month ago, while my girlfriend and I were discussing how bad things are said, "We should have stayed in the apartment, why did you make us move out?" We nearly broke up over her stress, and now I was being blamed for everything)
I do sound for the local news, and commercial dubs for a tv station. I like the job but I have to be at work by 5:00 am. Afterover a year I am getting very worn out and since moving out of the apartment I make mistakes nearly every day. Nothing major, but the News Anchor is getting pissed. This morning I played the wrong music for the close (I forgot to switch tracks durring a commercial break). It ended at the right time, but she came in while I was out of the room and said "My god, how hard is it to play the right music at the end, it isn't rocket science." Obviously it doesn't feel good to have that said about you.
I have the most hours (just 2.5 hourseshort of fulltime though ), and by far the best pay that I have ever had. I have a major hospital bill coming, and my current living situation sucks. I am renting a tiny room out at my aunts place to sleep, and renting a tiny room at my parents place for my computer and stuff. I need the money but I don't know if it's worth doing if it makes me feel so bad nearly everyday.
I have started looking for another job already, but the hours are always too short, and the pay is always too low. I need to get out of my current living situation, and there is no way I will be able to without getting paid at least the same amount as I do here. I don't even know what kind of job I would want, plus this place is very short staffed right now, and I don't want to cause future stress on my friends here, which they most definitly will if I quit.
so to recap:
I can't stand the hours here, the feeling of worthlessness everytime I make a mistake, and some of the practices here
I can't ditch my friends here to pick up my slack, I need this job to get me out of my shitty living situation, I haven't found a job that even comes close to the pay and the hours here. And will moving to an aparment make things better, or is that just going to completely stop me from being able to quit until I get so sloppy at work they fire me, leaving me in a whole new pile of troubles.
what do I do, what dooo I doooo.
oh....and it's so dry here at work, that evertime I touch anything metal, (tape decks, soundboard, doorknobs) I get a nasty static shock. I counted 34 shocks last friday. 15 of those were before 7:00 AM. That right there is almost enough to quit.