well guys, i talked to him about it directly and he said that he doesnt want to sexualize our relationship so early. awww! but he feels that he has built this up in his mind for so long, he wants it tobe perfect and to be my best. awwwwww!!! but i think today is going to be THE day. he's comin over around 1130! so wish me luck. oh, btw, i am a little nervous, i want to make him feel like the way he makes me. we were messing around alittle on tuesday,and he is REALLY REALLY big. it kind of scares me bc i am small. i am not that sexually active. i know we're goin to have to use lubricant, but i dont know what to do to ease it a little. i dont want to hurt him, u know? well, neway, i will let yall know... hee hee.