Tomorrow, Tuesday, is the day my little girl should have been born.
I still haven't received any results on exactly why she died, but it doesn't matter to me anymore. Fact is, she's gone, and nothing can change it. I have more check ups, and tests on Wednesday morning, but Im not expecting to be told anything different.
As you all know, I have had the worst year, but your support has really helped me so much more than you could ever know.
Zero, you have been fantastic.
After all the tears and tantrums I have thrown at you, Im surprised youre still around.
I'd like to repeat the fact, that if it wasn't for you guys and my fantastic friends n family, I would be....well, I wouldn't be as happy.
Tomorrow, I have taken the day off work to sit by Dylan's grave with my ex.
Then I should be hunting for a headstone. So, in true Lilmiss style, Im gonna get sozzled later.
Thanks again to all the stars in here, I wont embarrass myself naming you all, as I would probably forget someone. You know who you all are though.
As for my Lil princess, I have written a poem, which I may post tomorrow.
Ok, now Im gonna get some kip in, waiting for tomorrow has drained me so much.
Im sure now I can get on with my life n hopefully find my smiles again.
You guys rock, and I wish I could just show you how much I appreciate you.