Originally Posted by Everose
I will say that it used to make me angry when I felt others put me down for smoking. It didn't happen often because I mostly smoked on my own property. But sometimes at meetings I would go outside on break with the other smokers (great people, btw) and I noticed the disgusted looks thrown our way by the non smokers. It made me angry, what gave them the right to judge a smoker in that way!
This anger I felt actually kept me smoking longer than I should have. Kind of like a defiance thing.
I guess that anger went away when I realized it was myself I was angry with. Angry at myself because I couldn't stop something that I felt was taking years off my life. And even angry at myself for having an addiction so strong that I couldn't control it.
So basically I was really judging myself a lot harder than others judged me for it, and when I realized that it seemed kind of silly to be mad at them for doing the same thing I was doing.
Skweeky1.........I have stayed away from bars, and even people I used to smoke with. Even doing that, I have backslid. But I am just trying to keep focused on not having one.
I may have posted this before, but what really hit me is that hand surgeons will not even attempt to reattach severed fingers on a smoker. And then recently I started reading a book by a Dr. Amen from Fairfield, CA. He does SPECT on brains and he has pictures in his book of how smoking affects the brain. Scared me. I need every last brain cell I can muster some days.:D
If constant second hand smoke can do the same thing to non smokers, then I would have to say that I don't blame them for not wanting to be around it.