come on grasshopper... your just making it more difficult for yourself (and if your in touch with Nikki, then probably making it more difficult for her too)
so try easing up a bit, staying cool, and being happy.
i started a thread called "tralalala's disccotec" specially for you mate... some good music should help you sooth the pain your going through (although its Nikkis pain... :lol:)
tralalala