I am deeply in tune with nature. I do not gain pleasure from the animals I kill, nor the ones I eat, because of thier death. I, instead, see the lesson in mortality. The deeper touch into the nature of all creatures. We must live, we must die. In some cases, we must kill, or be killed. I do not suggest I would die without the deer, elk or rabbit etc. that I have killed, and eaten, in the past. What I do suggest, is that it allows me to become one of the animals I hunt. To let go of "civilization" for a week and walk in the wild is a priviledge. (sp?) But it is not truly understood until all the trappings are removed. No tent, no stove. Just you, your weapon and the wild. To truly become one with the natural surrondings, you must be merciless, like mother nature is. I do not inflict undue pain. I kill like the wolf, or the lion. I immediately incapacitate my prey and see to it they die. No more, no less. No suffering. I then get about the business of cleaning, dressing and processing my kill. I forget that I am a man, and become a natural creature of the world that birthed me. I commune with the trees, who thank me for the blood that hits the ground and feeds them. My senses are sharper. My taste is enhanced. I can feel the life of the forrest run through me as I live as it lives. I become what I was meant to be, were it not for "civilization". I live as my ancestors did. For that brief time, I am beyond man.
That is nature. To live and die in the wild. I would happily give myself over to the wild if I knew where one could live unmolested by the world. I will teach my daughter these things as I have learned them myself. I am not a butcher, or a nazi. I am a hunter and prey in one. I kill using primative weaponry. I own guns, but do not use them for hunting nearly as much as the bow. I used guns primarily as a youth, do not get me wrong, but now, it is the bow. I eventually plan on using a spear and knife as my spear skills develope. One day, if I am blessed, only a knife will be my tool.
I do not like being this human I am, and desire something pure. The wolf is pure, the lion, the panther.... They live true to the laws of mother.
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