
Originally Posted by
manker
Ehh, I duno. You sound sincere enough.
I got the impression when you said that you were going to tell her what you thought of her, some anger would have been involved. Given your previous.
btw, I just re-read the bit of the thread where you said it and it seems as if you got there and back in 2 hours

I work across that side of the country an awful lot, I was stopping in a hotel that night. Oh! And the second post was made on a mobile, so it was made immediately after I had actually knocked on her door. That was how our 'friendship' was possible in the first place. I have several friends over that side of the country, they all insist on taking the piss out of me about all of this as well. One of them even takes the piss by telling me she reads the local paper to check if I've been arrested for doing something about this.
I don't suppose this will make much sense to you, but there are members here to whom it will. I was in the Army, I hurt people, badly hurt people in that job. One of the effects that has upon most blokes who have done that, is it makes you realise that hurting anyone is something you really... and I can't stress that really enough... don't ever want to do again.
On top of that there's the small factor of me caring about her... as friends go I was stupid enough to allow her closer to me than I had ever allowed anyone... emotionally closer. She made it to the top of my list of close friends, that's why what happened hurts so much and why I will never be able to stop caring for her, even if she never cared for me.
Trust me, she is as safe from me, as any person on this planet and I include my kids in that. She knows that, she said it in one of her posts.
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