No chance. You are a canvas in which others get to wipe filth on.
I'm re-watching the Hobbits, so I'll throw this analogy in: You are A LOT like the character Golem- that is, if each of the interesting, full characters took turns urinating, and wiping their asses on him. That, and Golem is portrayed as 1/10 as obsessed, and 20 times more mentally stable than the real you.
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