As some of you already know, I have 3 diagnoses: Asperger's, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I receive disability benefits; in college (from which I can get expelled for two years if I remain on an academic probation) I registered with their Disabilities office and took a C++ test there. However, I probably did poorly on the test because I couldn't force myself to study before the test. I often don't brush my teeth and often don't take a shower. I have a weak sense of identity. I mean, I don't know what my values are. One day I want a relationship with a woman and some other day I just want sex. Of course, I can't get women either for sex or relationship. I remember one time in college I asked a pretty girl for sex, but she called a security guard on me, and I was sent to a hospital and then a doctor released me. People I've known since high school rarely call me and I rarely meet with them. What do I do these days? I play games and try to socialize on the internet... I don't even know if I can express myself clearly in English. People, please tell me what it means to be a normal person. It's so difficult for me to be normal and I am not even sure what normal is.
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