
Originally Posted by
stoi
thats because you asked to be disabled from all the rest, and then change your mind.
you are a strange one, but you know we are a games tracker, if you didnt want games, why even bother joining, doesnt make sense. but more fool the idiot for inviting you.
It had nothing to do with the content. I left most sites. You should not take it personal because it wasn't.
And yes, I asked to be deleted on all the sites except from these (now 8) sites that I'm at. Why? Because I don't have the time, energy or interest enough to be at many sites anymore. I've always been on quite many sites, and I've always made use of them, not everyone torrent-wise, but if not, then in other ways. If I did not use an account - in any way - I have always asked for it to be disabled/removed. I can honestly not say I've been trying to collect, because everytime I had over 20 sites I felt very unfomfortable and stressed. I have always wanted the number down to 1-2 or max 3. I'm tired of the drama that comes with being an active member of many torrent sites. The drama is neverending and I don't think that will change. I was on IRC/Forums/Sites to have fun, to share files, to laugh and have a good time. Not to fight people or hear these goddamn rumors going around and everyone flaming eachother for no particular reason.
So yes. I am no longer a part of the "empire" as I used to be. I've been in this game since the day TPB opened their doors. I've been on pretty much every site that has been known to at least a handful of people, and some that were not as known.
I've just come to the point when I actually can't stand to be in the middle of this extremely boring drama that goes on and on every single day.
Yes. I have been an asshat many times. I have upset people. I have trolled. I have abused staff. I have abused members. I have spammed.
A lot of people dislike, maybe in fact hate me. I don't blame them nor judge them for that. I've given them reason to feel they way they do.
Yes. I have borderline. And yes I have ADHD. I'm extremely impulsive. I get annoying and weird/mean when I'm bored.
But I can honestly say that I have never wanted to do anyone harm. I have done that nontheless, but I am sorry that I have. I want everyone to know that they are all good people although me may not agree on everything or be the best of friends. But I can't say I disrespect anyone in the torrent world. We're all people. We're all pirates. We do what we believe in. When we should all really come together and fight for our cause we instead go to war with people that are fighting for the exact same thing as ourselves.
You can see this an an apology to everyone I ever did any damage to, hurted, annoyed, made angry and many other reactions. I hope they realize that I am not a bad person. I am far away from flawless, I have a lot of things to do to be a better person in this community and in the world itself. I hope they will come to understand that too. I respect everyone although I might have acted in the complete opposite way. Even my arch-enemies mitch and Feeling. I know they are both good people by heart but we could not get along. That's how life works. Some people you will love, others will repulse you completely.
I think it's very sad that you punished my inviter for something that had nothing to do with him. I did not cheat. I did not trade. I did not insult your team nor site in any way. I simply asked to be removed. Yet you punish him. I think that's very unfortunate and I do believe that you should reconsider your actions. Don't harm people that makes your site what it is. Without your users you wouldn't be where you are today. So for his sake, I hope you do change your mind because we both know that he isn't the one to be punished for what he had nothing to do with.
It ends here. I will not in any way what so ever be a part of any drama that goes on in this society. You can flame me, hate me and love me as much as you want. I will however not respond to a single more statement that is aimed to insult me or to make me mad or in general bad mood. So please, don't bother to continue, none of you, because no matter what you say, what you accuse me of, I will not even comment on it. That's the truth, and there is nothing more to it.
I've had my fun. I've known a lot of fantastic people on various sites. Most of the people I knew, from the start, are gone. They got tired of the drama and I guess that is exactly what happened to me. BitTorrent is not what it used to be. I no longer recognize the actions or statements that people do, or what they are turning trackers into. It's changed for the worse. It's sad but that's the truth. There are a few honest, decent sites that still are worth having any respect for. The exact same sites that I will stay on.
I don't know if I ever will return the bittorrent communities including IRC and forums again. I might. Perhaps I won't. But right now, and that's all I can say for sure, is that I don't feel like going back. I will obviously still leech and seed but that's it. I'm leaving the torrent-related forums as well. I might pop in some day and leave a comment but I doubt it.
A huge thank you to everyone that has been a part of my torrent-life for all these years. I'm going to miss many of you. Good luck to every induviduals, tracker staff and all the other people that will still be around.
I do believe, right now, that I won't come back. That I won't open up IRC or post in a forum. I've had my fair share. If I ever change my mind, you'll see me again. But for now - farewell mates.

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